Have you ever needed confirmation from God that you were moving in the right direction. That what you were feeling lead to do was truly what he wanted. I received my confirmation this morning in my bible and prayer time.
You see I felt lead to start this blog weeks ago and I kept saying God I can’t do that. I am not smart enough and I haven’t been a Christian long enough to be able to help anyone. I said Lord no one is going to want to read it and I am going to only embarrass myself and fail you Lord. Honestly, I didn’t even know what a blog was nor had I ever read a blog but my spirit kept telling me to start it. Before I could even start any research on blogs, I opened Pinterest one morning and my feed was full of articles on Christian blogs. At this point, I had not searched anything on blogs especially a Christian Blog. I didn’t really know that they existed. Crazy me said this has to be a coincidence it can’t be God telling me to do this. I finally go the nerve to mention the idea of starting a blog to someone I work with last Friday and she seemed so positive about it and thought I should do it. I told her I have no idea how to start one but she continued to encourage me to do it. That night me and my husband were coming back from dinner and I all of sudden blurted out ” I want to start a Christian blog” I thought to myself, he will be honest with me and tell me I am crazy and shouldn’t do this but instead he pulls out his cell phone as I am driving and looks up how to start a blog and begins to read this to me on the way home. It sounded so easy and I remember I started praying in the car, God it can’t be this easy and why me of all people. I don’t have anything to say that people haven’t already heard.
I continued to pray until I fell asleep that night and when I woke up Saturday morning the blog was the first thing on my mind. I thought okay, I surrender. I said God if this is what you want then okay, I may embarrass us both but here goes nothing. I was amazed at how easy it was to set it up and write my first post, but I did it. Yesterday, I did another short post over something that God has dealt with me on so I decided to share it. But last night I was reviewing the Stats of my post and had 84 people review it on Saturday and only 17 people yesterday so I began to doubt myself. I prayed yesterday afternoon Lord, maybe this is wrong, maybe I misunderstood you. I said Lord if this is not what you want me to do please let me know but Lord most of all if it is something you want me to do, I need you to let me know. I was feeling very defeated yesterday and was so full of doubt. I ended my prayers last night with God, I only want to do your will so please lead me in the direction that you want. I woke up this morning and grabbed my phone and the first thing I see is a notification on Facebook from my daughter. I opened it and it was a comment on my blog that she shared that said ” So proud of you!! Love You! I got up and started praying as I fixed my coffee for guidance and I opened my bible and it opened to I Timothy Chapter 4 and as I went to turn it, because this is not where I am currently reading, I glanced at the verses I had highlighted at some point in the past year and it was verse 15-16 in NKJV. It says “Meditate on these things: give yourself entirely to them, that your progress may be evident to all. Take heed to yourself and to the doctrine. Continue in them, for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you.” I just sat and cried, as I believe that was my confirmation from God to continue.
So today, if God is working on you or trying to tell you something just stop and listen. If you have doubts just ask him for confirmation. He doesn’t want us going in the wrong direction so he will let you know if you are following his will. Just trust and believe in him.
Thank you Jesus for ALL you do and for loving each and everyone one of us!!